Wow, so it’s been a hot minute since I’ve come on here and actually wrote something. Since we are all experiencing this new normal also known as social distancing, I thought I would come on here and write about my experience and what I’ve found out about myself through this experience thus far.
Let’s just be honest. I know we’re supposed to be positive about everything, but we’re pretty deep into this and I’m having trouble seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Not to mention, I have a child I’m homeschooling that asks for a snack every 10 minutes. It all started 4.5 weeks ago when I was sitting at work in my office. I have to be honest, when my work decided that it was best for us to work from home, I was actually excited. I wasn’t going to have to rush out the door to get E off to school, or accidentally sleep through my alarm because I stayed up way too late stressing about the next morning. Little did I know, I was going to miss that routine.
The enthusiasm that I had the first few weeks of this has faded and I’ve lost count of how many cups of coffee I’m drinking through out the day. I’m struggling, and I know I’m not alone. I couldn’t imagine doing this with multiple kiddos. If you are a momma of multiples, you are a saint and deserve all the wine you want!
Here’s where it gets a bit serious, I’m working from home and completing tasks, but I don’t want to get out of bed some mornings, sometimes I don’t even want to shower and I snap at my loved ones. Am I normal? Was this something from before made worse by being stuck inside? Did quarantine cause some sort of depression? Can social distancing cause new mental health issues? I started googling and found a ton of articles and people feeling the same way I do.
How do I solve this? We all know mental health issues are not solved overnight. I wanted to figure out how to generate positive vibes while quarantining. I started off by changing the words “I am stuck inside” to “this is a great time to focus on myself and my home”. I am working on a set schedule with work and homeschooling that creates a routine every day. A lot of the articles suggest that if you take a walk at the same time each day, it will help you stick to a routine.
I am trying a lot of different options to keep things positive and hope that we will be out of this soon. I keep telling myself, we’re all in the same boat, and it’s true. I also know there are a ton of people who can relate to what going through.
Honestly, it was hard to write about something I normally don’t share. I’m a pretty private person. I shared what I’m feeling during all of this and what goes on behind the happy social media posts because I’m a real person. We can all portray whatever and whoever we want on social media, but what actually happens at home behind closed doors usually remains a mystery. So let’s all take a minute to put down our phones and focus on our loved ones, and most importantly, ourselves.